Building My New Tower

The universe is telling me to let go of my past and to build my new Tower. So… it’s time to create the world I want to live in.

What is the Tower?

The Tower card is one of the most powerful cards in the deck, at least for me. I’ve been fighting to break free of my past for years now, and this card has shown up in so many of my readings, it’s not even funny. However, it’s a little different now, and I’m hesitantly excited about it.

The old Tower is gone, finally. Thank goodness. I’m not saying I’m completely over the turmoil of my past, but there is definitely a mental shift where the impact and heaviness of the things that used to rule me don’t as much anymore. That’s something I’m very grateful for.

My manifestation and visualization this morning really drove this one home for me. It had me visualizing all the old doubts and fears and things that were holding me back. My fear that I’m not enough, that I don’t have enough resources to grow as big as I want, the fear that everyone is outgrowing me, and the feeling that I’m drowning as they leave me behind. The visualization had me take all of that and burn it in an ultra-violet light. When things burn, they don’t disappear. They just change states of existence. Then it had me gather the energy from all those fears and reshape it into the future I want for myself, the future I want to live. Where the people around me are healthy and happy, where I’m surrounded by my dear friends and family, and we’re on a beach surrounded by surf sounds and gorgeous plants and laughter, my toes digging into the sand as I watch their smiles and share in their happiness, knowing that people are reading my stories and growing themselves and the worlds around them and we’re all better for it.

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What this means for my writing

I really want my books to launch well and a lot easier, which means I need to stop doing things my way regardless of reality. I’ve been trying to write to market. That’s not who I am. I’ve been trying to launch everything under the same penname. That muddies the waters and people get confused. “What kind of experience am I getting for a F.J. Blooding book?”

I’m creating different pennames for my different ventures, and I’m going back to writing them concurrently. This is how I write best, when it’s more natural. Instead of cramming myself into rigid schedules, I need the flexibility to write wildly.

This is what each of my pennames are and the brand promise I’m offering.

F.J. Blooding - Unfolding Worlds, Sparking Dreams or Escapism to obtain your dreams. This is going to be fantasy and urban fantasy.

F.J. Wylde - Where strong women find their happily ever after - because this is so incredibly important. The standard happily ever after doesn’t work for us, and it’s time that’s acknowledged. We need our partners to stand beside us and I’m sick of reading “elevate the poor ego-sick man to find your womanly power.” That’s bullshit and creating toxicity in our culture and I despise it. I really fucking hate it. But… I am a romantic and I love romance. Real romance. And I want that.

F.J. Wynx - Reclaim the light you buried in your darkness - because… that’s what I’m doing right now and it’s what I need. And I know I’m not alone. That’s where Dreamland is going because that’s always what Dreamland has been for me. And I’m not going to try to make it marketable. Doing that twisted the Dreamland concept and made it almost unrecognizable. Trying to make it “marketable” has only failed and I think it’s because I need to be true to myself. I’m going to write this as I need it.

F.J. Nova - Flying amongst the stars, we confront who we truly are. This might change, but right now, this is it. I want our science fiction to launch and to launch well and I want to delve deep into issues that matter while doing it.

The part of me that has the greatest value to those around me is something I am claiming for myself. I find solutions, and if I can’t find them, I create them. These solutions are for me, and those around me will benefit from it as well.

How you’ll see the changes

If you’re on Storyland from your computer - where it looks the best anyway - you’ll see there are three new tabs at the top: Blooding Books, Wynx Books, and Nova Books. Wylde Books will be added as those chapters go up. They are in the works. I’m attaching them here so that if you subscribe once, you gain access to all of them. I don’t need you to subscribe to four different blogs to get the books. That’s silly.

As I go through, I’ll be sharing some of the process because I need to. This will hopefully help me gain my tribe because… I desperately need to find you. I’m here. So are you. Together, we’ll grow and be amazing. There are so many changes we’re going through and I don’t want to do this alone, and neither do you.

But you can choose which books you get notifications on. I’m filling my void, which means I’m going into hyper creative mode. That can be a huge turn off to a lot of people, but it can also be amazing to others. It might feel like I’m spamming you, so turn off what you don’t want to read. And if this thought terrifies you, leave. It’s okay.

I am a storm and it’s time I embrace that. Not everyone is okay with that. Most people are not. Most people like to remain inside as the storm passes over, embracing what comes after. Few of us enjoy standing inside the storm, allowing it to slough off what we no longer need.

I’m excited. I’m doing this. I’m taking the energy of my past towers and making something amazing from it. I can’t wait to read the stories that are coming from it. I can’t wait to view the world through the eyes of others while infecting these characters with my own soul, which sounds… narcissistic.

But I am a disease. To doubt. To fear. To negativity.

Even though I carry that shit around me like a cloak and bathe in it like it’s the only home I’ll ever know, my soul, my light, is a disease that these things try to snuff. And it’s time for me to be true to who I am.

I am the storm of the change I’m creating. And it’s exciting.